we rely heavily on pictures
movies, books, and social media
from the time we 
were able to comprehend
to dictate and mold how things
should be within our
own relationship realms
it is ingrained in
our mannerisms and very desires
telling us what we want

well, what do you want?
 

I cannot appreciate
what my emotions
and my fears
won’t let me see
and like an enjoyably
cool breeze during
a hot summer
it’s gone before
I even get a chance
to know it’s there.

your head is full of thoughts
and they just build and build
gain a certain complexity
you think you can leave them be
that they’ll just work themselves out
but that’s when you end up being caught
in your own cognitive net
struggling to get out
you become more entangled
dangerously so
you lose hope
and then you lose yourself.